Life sometimes throws things at you that you don’t understand. Sometimes it throws things at you that you don’t want. And sometimes you get stuff that just plain wrecks you.
We had a scare in our family last week that did all three of the above to my heart. It caught me off guard, it had me questioning why and I sure didn’t want any part of it. As we are navigating our way through the unknowns, I can say without a doubt that it’s shaken me and it’s had me asking questions I don’t often ask myself or God.
Those moments are tough and learning to persevere through them is even tougher. In an age where we’re almost encouraged to be angry, to be a victim and to shake our fists at the injustices of life, finding peace in the midst of our storms is hard. It’s certainly not the norm. I wanted to scream “this isn’t FAIR!!” but I couldn’t. I wanted to give myself permission to break but I didn’t. I wanted to allow myself to be terrified, but I wasn’t.
The funny thing about faith is that you don’t need a lot of it to be ok. When you replace fear with faith, your perspective becomes so much different. It doesn’t change the situation but it sure plays an important role in allowing you to continue forward rather than curling up in a ball and hiding. It doesn’t take away from the situation but it does allow you to move through your days confidently knowing that you’re not alone in the struggle and that everything meant for harm will be used for good.
It all comes down to a choice. Will you search for a peace that defies understanding or will you allow yourself to drown in the uncertainties of tomorrow? Peace is harder to wrap your head around because it means trusting in the unseen but the other side of that is an ability to move forward with a knowing that everything will be as it should and that even the things that seem unfair and unjust today will be the things that create beauty tomorrow.
Going forward, this is the perspective I have. It doesn’t mean it’s easy and it doesn’t mean I’m not afraid. But it means that I trust that out of every situation, something beautiful will arise.