This Spring was supposed to be an awesome time of building running mileage, getting Spartan ready for the summer and just all-around kicking life in the pants. Unfortunately, as is often the case, my superior plans haven’t quite gone as intended. Back around the end of February/beginning of March, I started feeling run-down, more fatigued and way less energy than normal. I figured it was me training a bit too hard and not giving myself some much needed recovery time.
Day by day, things just got worse. I needed to lie down every single day. Sometimes multiple times. I could barely get out of bed and walking up the stairs had my heart racing like crazy. I lost my appetite, weight and just felt plain awful. After some tests (some still ongoing and questions to be answered), we finally figured out that the main issue I was having (or at least the one we could address right away) was low iron. Reaaaaaaally low iron. So began the task of trying to level that out.
It’s been a few weeks now and I am feeling a lot better. But I won’t lie…I’m so frustrated. Weeks of lost training time, many steps backwards in strength and conditioning and not at all where I was hoping to be with summer nearly upon us. It’s been tough. I had plans and goals and now need to reevaluate them because I already know that I won’t be functioning in the capacity I was planning to be.
That said, I also haven’t given up either. It’s more of a refocus of effort and renaming of goals. Something I am no stranger to. And it’s also about rebuilding the strength I lost, which I’m already doing and the conditioning (which has been the toughest part because that is not my strong element to begin with) that I will need for race season.
I’m doing my best not to get down on myself because let’s face it, it doesn’t change anything and there’s not much I could have done to prevent it so it’s a matter of adjusting and just continuing to do what I can, when I can. There are still days where I feel very run down and tired and struggle to do my every day stuff but thankfully, those days are fewer and farther between.
Looking ahead, I can only hope that I can continue to get and feel better and that come race season, I can take it all in stride and be happy with whatever my outcome is. As someone who already struggles with confidence and self-image, this could end up being more challenging than it sounds but I’m not one to back down from a challenge!